Oh, I have so much on my mind. Mainly? Time…
Time is wonderful, and yet the lack of it sucks. Example: My kid is some how almost 12.
Twelve. So, I sit here and think of how little time we have left with her under our wings. And I CANNOT. Ugh.
But, that is our job as parents. We cannot keep them. We have to prepare them to soar. She is SO amazing. I cannot even begin to explain the ways. She is at West Virginia University this week for an art camp. She loves all things art and has a talent for drawing, and sculpting. She likes to paint, too. And now, as a result of this camp, she has been exposed to more mediums that have interested her. I am SO glad that we were able to do this for her. We may not have been, originally. Her grandmother recently passed away, and she had a life insurance policy that she left to M’s dad. And so the money came from that.
So, as much as we are saddened by the loss, we are grateful for her gift, and made sure that it benefited her granddaughter in some way. We will make sure to have the money so that she can go again next year, and so on. I am hoping they have similar science camps, but have to research that. She wants to go, if they have them!
Time. I look back on parts of my life and think, “How in the HELL was that 30 years ago?” It blows my mind. It hit me recently when I was thinking about my first real job at a local coffee shop. I loved my customers so much! And? I am betting that they are all gone now. Thirty years and most of them were elderly, or close to it, back then. It was such a depressing thought.
Music is both uplifting, and depressing at the same time. I will listen to songs that remind me of my childhood, of good times… and then it hits me that all the people I was surrounded with back then? A lot of them are gone. And so then I get sad….
It is a total love/hate relationship that time and I have..
One thing I DO know, is that I have to utilize it better. I have to make it work for me. And I am taking baby steps to make that happen.
Because…. we are all on borrowed time, and none of us know just how much of it we have.
Peace. And make the most of your time!