Better Every Day

A Herstory

A little background for those that do not know me… I have always been overweight. I was skinny once, when I was about 15, for like 20 minutes. It was great.

Knowing what I know now, OH how I wish I could go back. However, I cannot.

For years I complained to doctors about how tired I was. I complained about my painful, heavy, unpredictable periods. I complained about my brittle nails, my overly dry skin, how my hair would come out in clumps… I complained about the weight gain, and how no amount of healthy eating or exercise ever brought on any weight loss. I complained of severe, chronic migraines. I complained about my insomnia. Once, I kept a journal for a month. Every single thing I ate was written down. I kept track of exercise, and my headaches (I was trying to find any triggers), and I kept a log of my sleep.

Upon pursuing it, the doctor said to me, “If you had REALLY been eating this way, and doing all of this exercise, you WOULD NOT BE FAT.”

That was 22 years ago. I just recently found a doctor who seems to live and breathe helping people like me. I have Hashimoto’s thyroiditis, severe PCOS, and adrenal fatigue. I am insulin resistant, pre-diabetic, pre-hypertensive, morbidly obese, and sick and tired of being sick and tired. For the first time I have a doctor who listens to me. I have a doctor who explains things to me. I now have a clear understanding of my body, how it works, how it is SUPPOSED to work, why certain foods affect me the way that they do, and so much more.

I am doing everything he tells me to do. I am sticking to a particular calorie range. I have cut carbs, increased my protein and healthy fats, am taking some vitamins and supplements, and doing the moderate exercise he wants me to do. And while I am not yet losing weight, my lab values are showing results, and this makes me SO happy. He was very proud of all that I am doing.

For the first time in years, I have hope that I may actually get healthy and drop some of this weight. I don’t even want to be skinny. I just want to be strong. I want my numbers to all be good. And I want to be healthy.

This is where I will share my journey. Be warned, I may get emotional. I may have a tantrum now and again. I may share stories of my past and how all of this has been for me. I feel the need to purge so much….

Hi. I am Jen. I lost myself for awhile. Here is where I talk about trying to find myself, trying to be better in all aspects of life. I am moody, unpredictable, opinionated, a realist (who really struggles with being a realist), loving, caring, kind, and mostly laid back. I love my family beyond measure. I try to treat others as I wish to be treated. I do not tolerate bigotry, racism, and or hatred.. you get nasty, you get blocked. I do not engage. Just be nice.. ;)

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