I started this blog to sort of chronicle my life, as I felt like I was at a major turning point. I AM at a major turning point. However, it is all a big mess. There is so much I want to change, that I do not know where to begin. After much soul searching, I realized it has to start with me. I need to deal with/heal past traumas. I need to figure out who I want to be and what I need to do to get there. I want to be stronger, physically and mentally, emotionally and spiritually. So, I am working on that first. One day at…