• Better Every Day,  Hey. Hi. Hello.,  Rediscovery

    Struggles

    I started this blog to sort of chronicle my life, as I felt like I was at a major turning point. I AM at a major turning point. However, it is all a big mess. There is so much I want to change, that I do not know where to begin. After much soul searching, I realized it has to start with me. I need to deal with/heal past traumas. I need to figure out who I want to be and what I need to do to get there. I want to be stronger, physically and mentally, emotionally and spiritually. So, I am working on that first. One day at…

  • Better Every Day,  Hey. Hi. Hello.,  Rediscovery

    Well Hello…

    I have a lot going on. I have felt like I am on the edge of something big for awhile now. I just was not sure if that was a good thing or not. It has been made very clear to me that it is a GOOD thing. Big changes are happening for me. I am excited. I am taking baby steps so as not to get too overwhelmed. I just have not been living my best life. I have let others dictate too much. That is not good for me. I decided it is time to really take care of ME. I mean, I am still taking care of…

  • Better Every Day,  Hey. Hi. Hello.,  Rediscovery

    Ch ch ch changes

    Yes, I know. Resolutions are no good. I have made plenty over the course of my life that never came to be. This is not a resolution. It just is what it is. I have been working towards it for awhile. But, I am going to live my life with intent. I am going to stop telling every one every thing. And I am just going to DO. And well, that is that! Happy New Year! Be kind. Be tolerant. Speak out against wrongdoing. Do something nice for someone. And find your happy. Life is too short for anything else. Peace. Love. Happiness. xoxo

  • Better Every Day,  Hey. Hi. Hello.,  Rediscovery

    Procrastination, be damned!

    One of my goals for this month is to make a list each night of what needs done the next day. I was able to cross off all but one thing, and one other thing is in progress. So, yay! I am a horrible procrastinator. Lists help. Another goal I had set for this month was to try to remain positive, even if I am feeling grouchy. I was successful at this as well. However, I did allow myself a moment or two to acknowledge the grumpy, and then move on. I did not make the best food choices today. I am done beating myself up about it though. Tomorrow…

  • Better Every Day,  Hey. Hi. Hello.,  Rediscovery

    New Year, New Me

    Hahahaha. Just kidding. We all know that I suck at following through on stuff. On my Insta, I had wanted to take a photo each day of my view from the porch. OMG, I missed so many days. UGH. So, then I was going to start taking a photo each morning at daybreak. Well, that lasted all of two days. It is cold, dead, and gray outside. No one wants to see 47922 pictures of that. Besides, with my sleep issues, I am not always up that early. I have really been trying to take a good hard look at myself, though, to assess where I really need to make…

  • Better Every Day,  Hey. Hi. Hello.,  Rediscovery

    Well, hello…

    I am so horrible about being here. I WANT to be here. I have a lot of crap I would love to get off my chest. But, just like FB and elsewhere, no one wants to read my whining posts. SO, I try to suck it up. I lost my job back in September. I knew it was coming, as my boss distanced herself from me, and my coworkers got to the point that they didn’t even acknowledge me until they needed something. It sucked. I really loved my job. For the first time in my life, I did not dread going in to work. I have loved all of…

  • Better Every Day

    Baby steps

    I have noticed two things in the last month. I can run my fingers through my long hair and not come away with a handful of it. And my fingernails! For the first time in well.. forever? They are the longest they have ever been. They are not bending, peeling or cracking. *knocks on wood* I will take any and all small victories at this point! 🙂 On the downside? This may be TMI.. so you have been warned. I did not have my monthly for a good while. But now that my numbers are moving towards where they should be… it is back. And this month? With a vengeance.…

  • Better Every Day

    A Herstory

    A little background for those that do not know me… I have always been overweight. I was skinny once, when I was about 15, for like 20 minutes. It was great. Knowing what I know now, OH how I wish I could go back. However, I cannot. For years I complained to doctors about how tired I was. I complained about my painful, heavy, unpredictable periods. I complained about my brittle nails, my overly dry skin, how my hair would come out in clumps… I complained about the weight gain, and how no amount of healthy eating or exercise ever brought on any weight loss. I complained of severe, chronic…